OMG was given my eating plan today!!!

I think I am going to feel starving for the next few weeks till I get used to eating alot less 90grams of meat per dinner 1(thats right 1!!!) potato and vegies that is like 1/5th of what I normally eat (yes I eat an excessive amount) it is one hell of a HUGE adjustment to make - I was unable to get weighed at my first apt because I was too heavy for their scales (they take up to 150kg) but either their scales were out OR I have lost weight because I weighed 147 today I have a LONG LONg way to go BUT I have a positive feeling and attitude this time :)

Tomorrow I see a dietician tomorrow

time to get serious!

I need to lose weight to help with TTC will be good to get some professional advice.

For all you TM ppl who still check here for messages

Just thought I would add an update - I only ever go and lurk on the boards when I have a thread pointed out to me - I could not be less interested in the msg boards - the longer I have been away from them the more I wonder what the hell was the attraction to them.I have found another parenting forum which literally only talks about kids and parenting which is fab! If anyone wants to get in contact with me they can do so either at facebook (Sarah Rowe) or MSN (ew_er@hotmail.com) or email getme@paradise.net.nz .

I am really happy with the way my life is going atm - it is often the way - out of some shitface situation things end up better than they were in the past.

Hubby and I have just had an awesome weekend away in Kaikoura - going through caves,doing walks to waterfalls with seal pups at the bottom of them and we even went on segways which was totally awesome! nice meal out , relaxing in the spa where we stayed - it was just lovely - the kids stayed with the inlaws.

Lexi is nearly 16 months old and has so far only walked 4 steps in a row and 2 or 3 steps a few times - she will get there when she is ready - she is just lazy/laid back!!! she is just beautiful!!!Theo is doing well - seems to really like his new school and goes to St Johns cadets each week and totally loves that.


so all in all I love the house we are in now, things are going really well - weightloss really needs to get restarted - I have been super slack but I do NEED to get back on track because we are not having much success TTC so losing some weight would probably help that.

1 person off TM I would really love to get hold of is Sarahg7 so if anyone has contact details for her please pass on my contact details.

:)

not exactly the way to do it

I am now down to 142kg having spent a week in hospital eating next to nothing and then a week at home not eating much .

I am really not in the right frame of mind for writing in this blog - I hate my life and every single aspect of it - I wish I could wake up and it all just be a bad dream or someones idea of a bad joke

I can't win with me!!!

I am walking Theo to and from school each day and actually really enjoying the walking - but now I am struggling with the food side of things - where last time I could not exercise but I did great with the food - I now need to combine the 2 and the weight should fall off - I know from past experience when you are this big the weight just falls off to start with.

well that is a good restart to things

have walked to and from school both today and yesterday and have actually enjoyed it . it is 10 mins each way so 40 mins a day - going from 0 mins a day it will have to make a difference.

once I have got used to doing that I will start taking longer routes to and from school .

good to be back on track and with including the exercise this time it should not take long to start getting results.

Right well that was a disaster!

with moving house and then Christmas and the school holidays I REALLY fell off the waggon - BUT as of tomorrow I am back on it - it is a whole change all round - not only are we wanting to be more healthy but we are wanting to save money so I am also looking for part time work - part time work not only will help the finances BUT it Will keep me active - get me off my big fat lazy butt!!! Theo is back at school tomorrow and it is a 15 minute walk each way so that is an hour of walking for me each week day which is wonderful.

Health issues have meant that TTC is now on hold till I know what is going on with my health so that gives me a good chance to lose some weight before starting up TTC again meaning that it may be easier to conceive once we start trying again. So things for the most part are looking up!
hopefully I don't fall off this time .