day 3

short and sweet!

water !!! ug!!! what a mission!

everything else is going well

Day 2

well last night was tough! I was sooo hungry BUT I did not give in! I was most suprised to wake up this morning and not feel starving infact I did not even feel hungry.I really wish I could swap the meals around because I find the breakfast more filling than dinner.

I sooo hate drinking water , well not that I hate drinking water but to have to drink 3 - 4 litres a day I am really not fond of! yesterday I managed 3 L JUST I guess that will get easier as the weather warms up.

I remember when I was pregnant with Lexi I could never get enough water - some times I would drink a couple of litres in an hour - on average I drank 8 - 10 litres in a day back then, maybe getting pregnant will help :)

I think once I have got through the first 3 weeks it will be easier - they say it takes 3 weeks to form a habbit - so if I can do it right for the first few weeks eating right will just be a habbit.

I really wish that Vegies were cheaper - at the moment it is about $4.50 for a cabbage and the same for a lettuce I can have unlimited salad with lunch and unlimited vegies with dinner - I ate 1/4 of a cabbage last night and 1 head of brocolli I guess I will start eating less vegies(but still enough) once my stomach has shunk a bit .

I recon I will lose about 3 or 4 kg this week if I stick to it like I have - I am starting aquawobble on monday night and I will do that monday nights and friday mornings so increasing my exercise levels a ton (45 mins twice a week aquawobble and a daily walk) has to help too.

I will be thrilled if I manage to lose 3kg - more would be nice but I will be very disapointed if I have not lost atleast 3kg.

talk about obsessed

so far today I have had what I am allowed to eat - 1/2 of a cup of bran with yellow top milk,a banana and a piece of toast I keep going to the eating plan and seeing if there is anything else I have missed that I am allowed and have not yet had but no I have had everything!

I am finding myself planning lunch already - Lunch today will be 2 slices of bread with 60 grams of canned Salmon,a cup of soup and a pear but I might not eat the pear with lunch I might save it for an afternoon snack.

Tea tonight is Salmon fillet (90 grams uncooked) 1 potato(hen egg sized) and I am going to do a TON of vegies because I can have as many of them as I like and a piece of fruit - probably a manderin. Later on I will be able to have a glass of yellow top milk too.

I am really going to feel this for the first few weeks - as ashamed as I am to admit it this is probably not even 1/5th of what I normally eat and untill my stomache has shunrk it is going to be hard going.

I have got so used to eating till I am full that I now expect to feel full all the time and that really is not good.

I will probably post here alot over the next few weeks because it is a much healthier thing to do than to obsess over when the next time I am going to eat is!!!

right now it is half an hour till lunch and I am JUST starting to feel hungry so I asm feeling better than I thought I would.

Once Lexi gets up from her sleep we are off for a walk down to the park - I really am looking forward to having more energy to do more with the kids because right now even getting up and down from the floor has become a huge mission.

so that is Fridays ramble out of the way - I may post again later if not will be bac tomorrow :)

OMG was given my eating plan today!!!

I think I am going to feel starving for the next few weeks till I get used to eating alot less 90grams of meat per dinner 1(thats right 1!!!) potato and vegies that is like 1/5th of what I normally eat (yes I eat an excessive amount) it is one hell of a HUGE adjustment to make - I was unable to get weighed at my first apt because I was too heavy for their scales (they take up to 150kg) but either their scales were out OR I have lost weight because I weighed 147 today I have a LONG LONg way to go BUT I have a positive feeling and attitude this time :)

Tomorrow I see a dietician tomorrow

time to get serious!

I need to lose weight to help with TTC will be good to get some professional advice.

For all you TM ppl who still check here for messages

Just thought I would add an update - I only ever go and lurk on the boards when I have a thread pointed out to me - I could not be less interested in the msg boards - the longer I have been away from them the more I wonder what the hell was the attraction to them.I have found another parenting forum which literally only talks about kids and parenting which is fab! If anyone wants to get in contact with me they can do so either at facebook (Sarah Rowe) or MSN (ew_er@hotmail.com) or email getme@paradise.net.nz .

I am really happy with the way my life is going atm - it is often the way - out of some shitface situation things end up better than they were in the past.

Hubby and I have just had an awesome weekend away in Kaikoura - going through caves,doing walks to waterfalls with seal pups at the bottom of them and we even went on segways which was totally awesome! nice meal out , relaxing in the spa where we stayed - it was just lovely - the kids stayed with the inlaws.

Lexi is nearly 16 months old and has so far only walked 4 steps in a row and 2 or 3 steps a few times - she will get there when she is ready - she is just lazy/laid back!!! she is just beautiful!!!Theo is doing well - seems to really like his new school and goes to St Johns cadets each week and totally loves that.


so all in all I love the house we are in now, things are going really well - weightloss really needs to get restarted - I have been super slack but I do NEED to get back on track because we are not having much success TTC so losing some weight would probably help that.

1 person off TM I would really love to get hold of is Sarahg7 so if anyone has contact details for her please pass on my contact details.

:)

not exactly the way to do it

I am now down to 142kg having spent a week in hospital eating next to nothing and then a week at home not eating much .

I am really not in the right frame of mind for writing in this blog - I hate my life and every single aspect of it - I wish I could wake up and it all just be a bad dream or someones idea of a bad joke