wonder if this will work

I'm back :)

was just given a reminder about this blog so thought I would write an update

I did give up for a while but I am back into things in a BIG way and I am totally in the right headspace - I have lost 13.5kg in the past 8 weeks and I am SOOOO in the zone!

I go to the gym 3 times a week (would love to go more but it just does not fit in around the kids)I am gradually building up my fitness level ,I have now gone from struggling to do 10 minutes to being able to do 45 mins which I am pretty impressed about :)

in 23 weeks I am off to Aus with Theo in september my goal is to have atleast 30kg gone by then :)

I am loving eating healthy,being nmore active and just enjoying life in general :)

oh and my kids are adorable as ever :) theo is 11.5 and Lexi is not long 2 now and they are my heart and soul!

don't expect too much along the lines of updates but I will pop one up from time to time :)

The big D

and not I am not talking diet! Divorce!

Richard and I are splitting up - it is for the best and everyone will be much happier it was my choice to split but he agrees 100% - now there's one for the records us agreeing on something.

So have I decided this is a good enough reason to give up the dieting????

HELL NO!

I have decided it has given me even more reason to work even harder at losing weight - because what I figure is it will take me a year or 2 to lose all the weight that I need to lose and by that stage I will probably be ready to start thinking about dating again and if I am happy and confident in myself I am less likely to fall in with the wrong guy and I think losing weight will help my confidence.

I am shit scared about going it alone - dealing with the kids by myself and not having anyone to help with things - BUT I guess like hundreds of thousands of solo parents before me I will manage.

1 week down 2kg down

I have to say I am pretty disapointed at only losing 2kg but then I have not been exercising as much as I wanted to because I have had a cold and cough - monday is it for the aquafit and Hubby is going to lower his bike seat this weekend so weather permitting I will be able to get out bike riding.

I have obviousy slightly misinturpritated some of what the dietitian had writen for me to eat because she says I did not eat enough carbs and protien but I am pretty sure I understod her this week - she said not eating enough will not help weight loss.

I may have only lost 2kg but I seriously feel so much better with my body being rid of all the crap it is sooo used to me putting in it.

So todays weight in had me at 145kg or 319lbs so another 6kg till I am under 140kg and 20lbs till I am under 300lbs :)

it is getting easier eating right - I am looking forward to the day when it is habbit and second nature.

so who is reading this? anyone?

Day 4 and feeling great :)

I am getting used to the smaller amounts now and I am not very often hungry - really what I am eating now is more than ample :)

Still struggling with the water though!

I decided tonight as silly as it may sound to some of you that I am going to track my weight loss in both KG's AND lbs - therefore giving me more milestones - like getting under 300lbs,250lbs as well as getting under 125kg and 100kg etc just for me really so I can feel like I have achived more - yup crazy I know but I feel it will make things a bit more fun for me.

My weigh in last Thurday I was 147kg so in lbs that is 324lbs so my first goal is to get under 300lbs which is about 136kg things sound so much more impressive in lbs :) "wow I have lost 25lbs" sounds far more impressive than "Wow I have lost 11kg!"

anyway I am starting to feel excited about the prospect of weight loss.

I was going to start aquawobble tonight but I am not 100% over my cold so I will wait till next monday night (I am going to go friday mornings too but I have to take mum to a hospital apt this week).I am also getting Hubby to lower his bike seat (he rarely uses his bike) so I can start going for bike rides in the evenings and weekends esp once the weather improves. so once I combine regular decent exercise the weight should start falling off.

I am really starting to doubt if I will have lost weight this week but SURELY I won't have gained. The reason I am thinking I probably have not lost any is that I don't feel hungry and some times I even feel full on what I am eating - I guess we will see on Thursday.

I must say I am actually starting to enjoy eating healthy and I am also enjoying writing in this blog - if there is anyone out there reading this blog some feedback and/or ideas would be fantastic.

I am going to get hubby to take some before pic's of me in my togs and I will put them up once I have lost 20kg with a photo after the 20kg is gone too Then I have decided I will update them every 10kg

I started out with the goal weight of 90kg in mind but I feel now why set a limit I am just going to keep going as long as I can but 90kg is the highest I want my end weight to be.

so I have a minimum of 57kg or 125lbs (see again the lbs sounds way more impressive) to lose I would like to be 90kg by next christmas at the latest.

it is a LONG road but it is a road I am ready to go down now - more ready than I have ever been before.